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Look, I know that it's fiction - I know that - but just hear me out, ok? Because I'm having a moment of crazy proportions and I can't stop smiling, I really really can't. I'm smiling and gushing and giggling for no real reason (no, it isn't too much salt) and I just, i have to put this down into some physical form because I'm overjoyed.
This is better than the Andi's-having-Toby's-twins thing. Bartlet rocked the podium at the debates and we met Will Bailey for the first time (whom I'm in love with almost instantaneously because he isn't Sam and he has this cutish charm to him that is everything and not at all to do with Jeremy). CJ was beautiful, the First lady was hilarious, Toby's face with the prank and still with Andi and I'm in heaven. Every time that bartlet gave a response we were clapping and cheering. I have the world's largest, most stupid grin on my face and I hope the euphoria lasts.
People, this is not fandom, this is worship. I write because it's a compulsion, I write because stories are everything to me, because I read about people and lives and histories and pure human potential (you'll notice I've been banding that word about a lot recently). I've been worried quite recently about a mock interview I have to do soon and the real one that should (hopefully) come afterwards and I've been worried because I can't write essays and I can't write prose or verse and I'm not ready for the biggest exams I'm going to have to take but if I can just get across in that interview (which I really, really want to get now; I've only just realised how important this is) that I want to be as intimate with language and knowlege as this culture then I will be fine, I know it. If I can just let people know that there is this passion about storytellers, that it's a oassion I have a thirst for and that I'm almost there, things will get better. I know this as a certainty.
And that's why this show perks me up. It isn't necessarily due to content (although that has a whole lot to do with it); it's to do with skill and passion and love and promise and I want that. I really want that.
