{ I've been took, shook, deleted from a book. }

[delga]

BASIA BULAT HAS UK TOUR DATES NEXT MONTH. I could maybe go to one of them? She's playing at London, Manchester and Birmingham before absconding, and I am STUPID BUSY all the way through to July, but. BUT. I could probably get to London after work and then commute to work from there the next morning? Maybe? OH GOSH. And she'll be in Brighton in May, but that's very much not going to happen.

Ugh, I wish The Flatmate were not in Perth! She would indulge my needs. Hmm. Maybe T is up for it? Although she may be in the States. Guys, I have too many international friends. I love you all but you are fuckmiles away.

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Things I have been doing of late: fighting with our goddamn kofax scanner; looking for the sun; surreptitiously writing and destroying poetry; compiling a ladies!Spooks!AU picspam; buying terrible music; trying to update with actual words and not just poems; mail merging barcodes onto labels; missing Merlin; trying to remember that I used to enjoy watching television; reading reams of terrible fanfiction; trying to work out how to claim my LGA discount on the season ticket I'll have to buy when I go back to using the train; not dealing with deads therefore building up a backlog godfuckit; drawing up a timetable so that I actually read/finish some of the 32 books I paid money for in the last four months; prepping for weddings etc.; enjoying my fen sky.

Et vous?

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I sort of looked for places to live and again concluded: not going to happen. How stressful. On the other hand, I'm putting money aside and it's slowly building up and, fuck it, maybe I should put some of it in an ISA or something.

Am more than a little fed up with my inability to make a decision about what I want to do but not enough to actually do something about it. Repeat ad nauseum. In the immediate sense I would like to have just a little bit more autonomy at work so that I can actually get shit done. I am trying to work out what the Seniors' role actually is because if it's as paper based as I think it is, I could probably do it. I am probably being hugely naive though.

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I just wandered away for half an hour. As you do. I have no idea why. EXCELLENT.

Comments

[wliberation.livejournal.com]

I love you all but you are fuckmiles away.

Heh. Yes. I read your FB post today, and my first thought was "Hey, Paris je t'aime is on the telly tonight, maybe we could-- Oh. No. Hang on..."

[delgaserasca.livejournal.com]

I got your email! I am actually composing an email in return, but I might just have to say bugger that and write you a letter. It'll take just as long considering how bad I am at emailing.

Oh, oh, what time? I could actually sit down and watch my DVD of that? Synchronised film watching: being lonesome together.

[wliberation.livejournal.com]

Heh, considering how long it took me to get to writing that email, I find this completely understandable.

LOL! How geeky would that be! Heh. It was 21:50. I've been meaning to watch it for ages. Well, mainly I just want to watch the bit with Buscemi.

[delgaserasca.livejournal.com]

Lol, is this twinnage, or just mutual procrastination? They are really the same thing at this point.

Oh, oh, I have seen that part! Your love of Buscemi warms the coldest reaches of my heart. The very COCKLES of my heart, one could say.

(Just found the yaffa yaffa song. Then DIED of shameface.)

[wliberation.livejournal.com]

I think they are the same thing. Also: my attention span is 0,01 sec-- oooh, shiny. *wanders*

I am pleased to hear this! How could you not love the guy, after all. I mean, c'mon. Just his scrunchy face! Which reminds me, I just found Ghost World from a sale rack a couple of months back, and he's still wonderful in it.

(LOL! Man, I have it around somewhere, too. *evil grin*)

[delgaserasca.livejournal.com]

An attention span, you say? My goodness. What a luxury! lols.

That film is still a whole world of excellence. Oh gosh, I need to watch The Big Lebowski again. There's a task for tomorrow night. (Have you ever seen Raising Arizona? Because if not you really need to rectify that.) (Um, not Buscemi related. Just also great.)

(SHAME, THE SHAME.)

[wliberation.livejournal.com]

Oh, Big Lebowski! Seriously, everytime I hear someone mention Nietzsche (which happens surprisingly often in the company I keep), my mind jumps to the word 'nihilist' and then immediately to the image of tall thin black-clad men kicking the air and shouting "I fuck you! I fuck you!" ....And here was your daily dosage of "weird things that Elina should never tell anyone about".

(No, I haven't seen Raising Arizona. Will make a note of it. Ooh, I've seen that poster; heh, I would have never guessed it worth watching based on that. Speaking of interesting films, have you seen To Live and Die in L.A.? Marvelous, if not for anything else than at least William Petersen's body language.)

[delgaserasca.livejournal.com]

Hahaha, I can just imagine the Serious Discussion around a seminar table and then you completely zoning out...insert little thought bubble above Elina's head with ninja racists etc.

(Ahhh, no, I have not. But I also STILL have not seen Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead because I am lame. I do have a list of Things I Should Get On Already, though, so will add the above to it.)

[wliberation.livejournal.com]

Well, my mind goes to all sorts of weird places when the conversation is supposed to be Serious. Apparently I can't take seriousness seriously? Which is why I always laugh at that one cursing scene in Deadwood.

(Oh, the list is growing and growing here as well. If only there was nothing else to do but watch movies and read books. It would be joyous life indeed.)

[delgaserasca.livejournal.com]

...ONE cursing scene in Deadwood? You will have to be more specific!

(Here is the terrible thing: it would be, but I think - and this must be a sign of mental development of something - I might just hate it? WHAT IS THIS. WHO AM I AND WHAT HAVE I DONE WITH MYSELF?)

[wliberation.livejournal.com]

Heh, I know. I just can't remember many specifics as such, only that the Sheriff is real mad and walking down the street and he says something like "I'll motherfuck you". WHICH CRACKS ME UP everytime because there's so much cussing at each other going on in this scene and I always start thinking about what it's like to act that scene, you know, when you have to pretend to be that mad and use so many swear words - and you know, swear words are actually quite funny because they're so Somber and Serious. And I don't know how the actors got through that scene without cracking up. (I mean, c'mon, who says "I'll motherfuck you"?) And it's supposed to be a really dramatic scene, not a funny one.

(GASP. Aaaaw, could this mean that you're growing up? It's funny, I had pretty much this same conversation with a friend just this Thursday; we were talking about how these days, when we're on holiday, we get restless after a couple of days if there's nothing even semi-productive to do and how it never used to be like that when we were young.)

[delgaserasca.livejournal.com]

I love ALL the cursing in that show because, you're right, the dialogue is insane, and yet they cut it across so neatly. But cursing aside, just the rhythm of the whole thing - when Al starts going - must be such a task to pin down! Oh, I'm going to have to schedule a rewatch in the summer. I devoured that series in the space of a month or something and then walked around slapping tables and saying 'motherfucker' a lot.

(But but but I REFUSE! And yet it is already happening. It is a shocking thing to realise that I don't know how to waste time very well any more. Something must be done about this but I can't think what.)

[wliberation.livejournal.com]

Yeah, most of the time the insaneness works in, well, an insane way. Pinky and the Brain insane way. But it works. It's actually only this one scne that throws me off.

then walked around slapping tables and saying 'motherfucker' a lot. ROLF! Oh god, I can so imagine that. Also? I don't think I will ever look at canned fruit in quite the same way again.

(We MUST refuse. But I theorise this thing is partly because our 'adult' schedules - which are so much more intense than our child/teenaged ones - have accustomed our minds to thinking that we sould be busy all the time, so when we're not, we quickly start feeling at a loss.)

[delgaserasca.livejournal.com]

I was very rarely thrown by anything in Deadwood. Okay, maybe that time that guy's EYE got ripped out. That threw me.

UNAUTHORISED CINAMMON lol.

(Yeah, I think you are right. I also think it is because we used to have so much free time that we allocated to various frivolous things just for the sake of doing those frivolous things. And now that time isn't available to us for the most part so we've dropped those pastimes and can't just immediately pick them up again.)

[wliberation.livejournal.com]

Unauthorised cinnamon! Man, how had I forgotten that?!

(True dat. I miss my frivolous things, but I'm determined to get them back.)

Okay, I think I need to hit the sack now, I'm feeling all drowsy (so early!). Maybe I'll dream of unauthorised cinnamon. *G* Or NCIS again. But hey girl, you sleep tight too, when you get to it! Night night!

[delgaserasca.livejournal.com]

I am feeling this exact sentiment about a lot of things tonight! I mean: when was our last commentversation?! ODDNESS.

Goodnight, girl. I'll hit the sack in forty minutes. I go to sleep at 10pm every night. Every night! What is this lunacy. But, yes, sleep well and recount your dreams tomorrow ;)

[wliberation.livejournal.com]

Oh shit, I just realised that the channel they're showing Paris on isn't viewable on my tv because my tv is a wankpot. Pout.

[delgaserasca.livejournal.com]

Oh no! Well. I'll send you my copy if/when I've watch it.

[wliberation.livejournal.com]

No worries, I think I know someone a bit closer by who has it. Thanks though!

[noorie.livejournal.com]

Am more than a little fed up with my inability to make a decision about what I want to do but not enough to actually do something about it. Repeat ad nauseum.
story of my life bb, story of my life. also, ((((((((((((((((((((m))))))))))))))))))))
i haven't been on in a month and trying (failing?) to catch up. hope ur good. how'bout we talk some time off lj?

[delgaserasca.livejournal.com]

Oh, I am emoticon illiterate, but I am sure it is something comforting, so thank you!

Also: yes! We must. Will you email me your skype username, please, because I don't know if what I have is correct. And if not, I will just have to call you!

[noorie.livejournal.com]

it's a hug :)
my skype username is mind.contorted, but i'm never on there. i think i have your number, or at least i vaguely recall trying to call you a while back and not getting through. when's good for you? probably best if i called, since my ringer's not working properly.