{ if you're not too proud I will walk you down. }

[delga]

About twenty minutes into today's driving lesson I did something I haven't done in almost two years - I mentally flipped the fuck out. Complete, overwhelming panic. Out of nowhere. I'm not talking about the anxiety I sometimes get on waking; I'm talking about mind-numbing, idiotic panic.

It turns out I am really good at holding my breath. Things I'd rather not deal with whilst driving: all of the above.

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Typically it's 21:50 and I have finally decided it's time to sit down and write my picfor1000 entry. To be fair, I did start earlier today but that's no going anywhere and this particular effort is an improvement. I've written the closing paragraphs! But not anything else. I don't really know where I'm going with this other than to a 1k word count, but it's not like I'm prepared for anything else in my life either.

Ugh, I'd really like to go to sleep at 10 though. I have work tomorrow after four days off. My brain is not ready for this shit.

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Related to the above: Basia Bulat to the rescue! I now have an epigraph, though no title. I'm doing brilliantly.

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I am trying to decide whether or not I want to see another show this year. On the one hand I need to stop fucking over my accounts. On the other hand, I'd love to see something else on the stage this year. Double plus if it's the ballet.

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Oh hey, Being Human. I forgot. Again. Well shit.